Turn around

I only like my church for my pastor, he always speaks with light. Today he spoke right to me and it was conferring because I know it is not his words but God's words. God knew that I NEEDED my confidence back and today it was given to me. There are no greater gift than what God gives us and what he gives us is no like what anyone else can give us. I feel bad about the confidence that has been given to me but it was the thing that will pull me out of the hole that I have been living in. My pastor told us that darkness can be a blessing to our lives and help our walk with God. Which is what I want the most; is to walk right alone side God, no matter what the cost. Of course, I want my life to go perfect and stay happy but that would be for the world and not the kingdom of heaven, not for God. Our goal in life is suppose to be to glorify God. Why? So people will come closer to God. Why does that matter? Cause if you do not have Jesus you can not go to heaven and I am telling you if you love someone you want them to go to heaven. It might not be the best way to look at it, but God propose of my life is not to put it in the best ways. But ways that you can understand. You may look at me different cause of my faith but that what it is, mine.